Over the past few months, God has been doing some amazing things in my life. And when I say amazing, I also mean very, very difficult. Things which require a lot of faith and trust in God to believe Him for. Basically, the direction of my entire life is more or less resting on what God tells me to do in this one situation. I find myself constantly saying things like, "I know that God will do His best for me, but at this point, I just wish I knew what that was in this situation... One way or another."
Today, God had another thing coming for me. :) Not in a bad way at all... Just not what I was expecting. I had spent a great deal of time this morning praying that God would reveal His plan to me on this decision in my life. And today, even during the service, that was the cry of my heart...
Until the band walked back up to the stage and began singing, and these words hit me like the proverbial ton of bricks.
I am not skilled to understand
What God has willed,
What God has planned.
I only know at His right hand
Stands One who is my Savior.
Wow... Could God have gotten my attention any better than that? I submit that I can't think of a better way. I almost had to sit back down in my chair when that hit me... And then I couldn't wipe the smile off my face, knowing that there is a God planning my future whose thoughts I am incapable of truly understanding. And yet to know that He stoops down to my level on earth to tell me that He loves me, and to lead me in the plan He has for my life.
I don't know why it struck me so strongly today... As I said, if I had a dollar for everytime I have sung those lines before, I'd have a lot of dollars. lol. Many of these times have even been in the midst of this situation... But this time I was absolutely rocked to the core by the very simple words.
Over this last weekend, another song has also gotten to me a lot. It's a prayer, an open invitation to the Creator of the universe to make our lives His, to use us to complete His plans, and to take our plans and form them into His. And as I think about how I want this situation in my life to work out all I can do is be reminded that God's will is the best for me, and sing/pray:
Oh, great and mighty One,
With one desire we come:
That You would reign,
That You would reign in us.
We're offering up our lives,
A living sacrifice,
That You would reign,
That You would reign in us.
